June 22, 2006
10:49pm
Slumber and Awakenings
Tonight was an affirmation that I spend most of my days in a lazy slumber. It’s gotten to the point where I’m asleep and I don’t even know it. When a condition is prevalent all the time, it assumes normalcy.
I went to a sending off gathering for Ishle Park tonight. (www.ishle.com) For those who don’t know her, she’s real, y’know? I admire her for her beautiful energy and her gift for speaking truth. Girlfriend is going to New Zealand to BE. And for that, I admire her courage and her faith in the Universe.
The evening was filled with talent, love, good energy and beauty. Ishle’s close friends came up and performed songs and poetry to send her off. Every single performer blew me away in their own unique way. There was a genuine feeling of One-ness and a halo of affection in the room. I felt privileged to have been exposed to it.
While waiting for the train back to A-town, I suddenly began FEELING again. I could feel the heat of the humid subway air, like I was inhaling someone’s exhale. I could feel my pores, feel my skin. The music pouring into my headphones sounded ALIVE.
èIsn’t it the law of opposites… you need the negative to appreciate the positive? I wish sometimes the reality was that you have eras of positivity, interrupted by the occasional negative mishap.
I look around this awesome city of diversity and I get really discouraged sometimes when I see the sameness of so many people. When did we become mentally lazy? When did we become complacent to be told how to dress, what to listen to, what to read, where to eat, where to play?
We are all in slumber, whether from working at a corporate slave ship, or from physical exhaustion—our senses have taken a backseat to necessity. The need to make money, the need to feel accepted, the need to live a certain affluent lifestyle. Me, too. Guilty as charged.
Every once in a while, I get to bask in the halo effect of something real. Tonight inspired me. My senses were awoken.
I hope to keep being humbled. Every time I think I got my shit figured out, I hope the Universe knocks me off my feet to keep me closer to the ground.
Thanks Ishle for sharing your night with us. As someone once said…”I go to seek the Great Perhaps”. Good luck.
Humbly yours,
hp